when the boy youre secretly in love with posts pictures of girls youll never ever look like

my legs are too huge and jiggly for shorts. my arms are too huge for short sleeves. my stomach is too huge for cropped shirts. my body is too huge for bathing suits.

This is the first time I’ve ever been so self conscious that I don’t want to go to school.

It’s just that I know you would love me if I wasn’t fat.

And I know if I had a flat stomach and bones you would

i have to. i cant deal with this anymore. its the only way to stop myself, then so be it. i will do this. im done.

when i know thats the reason why. why guys never give me a second thought. why he’ll do things with her and not me. why people dont invite me to parties. its really fucking hard.

im starting to believe that if i seek happiness within my friends and the people i care about and make sure that theyre happy, that i’ll be happy.
but i dont think this is a good idea.

ive been in such a slump lately and i dont know how i can get out of it. i just feel gross, ugly, fat, and lazy all the time. but i cant get out of it. i cant stop myself from making this worse. i dont know what to do.